Sick, weak, tired of being that which defines me
Want to sleep
Never wake to this again
Eyes watching
Hearts feeling
So encompassed
No repreieve
Deep now
Mask firmly engraved
Longing
Unfeeling
Want quiet
Solitude
Always

do you ever just want to scream?
scream so loud that your lungs vibrate inside your chest?
scream so deep that it brings to tears to your eyes?
not scream at anyone or anything
just scream
scream out all of the frustrations that have wrapped themselves around your soul
scream out all love and hate of yourself in its perfect imperfection
scream out the pain and the pleasure and the utter disappointments
scream yourself out until your voice is no more
scream until you can't feel the hurt and sadness
scream

I tire of it
I tire of you
I need more
I need less
I loved you
I can't stand you
I need something
I need nothing
I want you gone
I want you close
I have my dream
I have my nightmare
I am here
I am gone
Truth is, I've been gone for a long time now
I was never here