In That Life

He came into my life rather quick
He filled everyday with something new
This man 6"1' Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My dream

Before too long I was deeply in love
He had me giving up everything to be near him
This man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Love

Turned my back on family and friends
He promised he would take care of me
This man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Reason

We struggled just to have food in our bellies
He hustled and scammed to get whatever he could
This man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Drive

The harshness of our life was painful
He gave us both a way to kill the pain
This man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Savior

The euphoria was so welcome and blissful
He assured me that it wouldn't get out of hand
This man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Trust

The drugs quickly went from want to need
In his stupor, he would at times be so mean
This man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Dealer

There was not much we wouldn't do to not be sick
He said over and over that this time was the last
This man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Liar

When we did get money we would binge feed our need
He would be so gone that he would hit me and not remember
This man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Tormentor

The pain of our addiction pushed us deeper into it
He introduced a needle to my vein and made the pain go away
This Man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Weakness

Our world revolved only on drugs and our pain
His sickness and mine was all that we shared now
This Man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Nightmare

My spirit was broken by the life we were living
His abuse he rained on me was killing my need
This Man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Death

Painfully I withstood the horror of withdrawls
He promised and claimed he was feeling it too
This Man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
 My Deceiver

Finally, I thought, we are both clean and both sober
He hid it so well. The addiction I wouldn't see.
This Man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Magician

The life we had wanted was finally to be ours
His addiction he continued to cover and feed
This Man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Blindness

In dope rage he lashed out and laid hands again on me
His lying was done because now I could see
This Man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Shame

I walked away from him for now and forever
He cried and he promised that he would change just for me
This Man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Sorrow

I think of him often. I pray for him always. I cry over all that
He and I could have been
This Man 6"1', Blonde Hair, Blue Eyes
My Forgiven