Where Am I?

you're pushing me away
the tighter you pull the reigns
the further away I get

you're pushing me away
I already feel cornered
my muscles tense

you're pushing me away
you tell me to talk to you
but you don't really hear me

you're pushing me away
you say and pretend to be
one way, but it's a lie

you're pushing me away
you say that you care
you do about perception

you're pushing me away
you claim to want to help
but what you do is hurt

you're pushing me away
I restrain myself so much
so as not to catch your attention

you're pushing me away
you want me to share with you
it's really just arming you with ammo

you're pushing me away
keep holding me and
one day I will be gone

you're pushing me away
I'm closer to you now
Yet so far, far away

you push me to far
I wont be able to
come back to this space again

I won't want to